sem 5

As salam

Monday is the official day of 5th sem for my med school
Gentar.
Ye gentar.
Aku terjumpa abg adi.
And he said "3rd year like a shit. SUSAH"
I knew his words want me to works harder
Aku risau.
Semangat tu on and off.
Cuti ni aku tak belajar
Aku tak revise
Aku tak beli buku clinical year lagi
But ini bukan ALASAN
Kat library to byk buku
Pergi belajar
This time. Aku kena betul2 tetapkan niat
Focus. Don't give up

FOCUS. FOCUS. FOCUS.
Perbaiki diri
Ikhlaskan hati
Berhati-hati dgn percakapan
Hormat semua org
Jgn malu bertanya
Jgn malas belajar
Jgn mls berkongsi
Ya ALLAH, semoga iman tetap dihati.

Wasalam

P.s ubby. Love ya! 😘

emm emm

As salam
Ketidaksabaran
Tergopoh-gapah
Kerisauan melampau
Hasutan

Kau akan terbunuh.
Jangan buat kesalahan yg sama
Learn from mistakes
Try harder
This time I'm gonna make it right
Insyaallah

Sabar sabar sabar

Wasalam

P.s sudah lama perasaan ini tidak terjah. Ye. Aku rindu kamu. *cehhh*

seorang

As salam

Engkau hidup bukan seorang
Engkau jangan lupa
Engkau tidak boleh seorang
Engkau ingat

Hidup lebih lama untuk memperbaiki diri
Hidup lebih ramai untuk menambah rezeki

Aku cuba
Kerana aku percaya ada hikmah disebalik sesuatu
Dan sungguh, iman kuatkanlah peganganmu
Bersihkan hati
Tetapkan niat
Ikhlaskan perbuatan

Wasalam.

P.s Iman ada. IMAN tetap ada!

oh oh oh

As salam
Bagi aku seperti terlalu awal
Tetapi ada yg berkata " ada hikmahnya"
Tetapi bila fikir semula, itu memang kehendak aku
Bagi aku, aku belum bersedia
Tetapi sampai bila
Bagi aku, dia tidak sempurna
Tetapi aku?
Jauh enggang dari api
Aku lagi tidak sempurna
Bagi aku, aku belum betul2 melepaskan
Tetapi aku tanya lagi, "sampai bila?"
Bagi aku, aku tidak selesa
Gayanya, cara hidupnya.
JUJUR! Aku tidak selesa
Tetapi, mengapa itu dijadikan alasan
Bagi aku, aku dah berjaya
Tetapi sebenarnya, jauh lagi perjalanannya

Semoga ALLAH berkati segala
Iman di dada, mohon berdiri teguh bersamaku
Aku mungkin terjatuh
Aku mungkin lambat untuk bangun semula
Iman di dada, aku mohon jangan tinggalkan aku

Mungkin kini aku rasa aku menjadi diriku
Aku dengan minatku
Aku dengan harapankan
Aku dengan semangatku
Aku dengan angan2 aku

Namun iman, aku mohon jangan tinggalkan aku

Wasalam

P.s Alhamdulillah :)

soul

As salam

Aku tak selesa
Aku tak biasa
Bukan kerana aku tak pernah
Tapi kerana aku bukan yang dulu
I did changed. Alot.
And this changes wasn't good. I admit it.
Life gets tougher, harder.

Kenapa? Kenapa? Kenapa?
Mana tahajjud istikharah hajat tasbih semua? MANA?
Kau sepatutnya mengadu di tikar sejadah
Air mata sepatutnya mengalir di tikar sejadah
Tapi kau? Tepuk dada. Tepuk dalam2. Tepuk kuat2.
Memang kau tak bole ukur keikhlasan
Tapi kau sengaja menjauhkan diri kau
ALLAH sentiasa dgn kau
Kenapa kau lupa?
Tepuk dada. Tepuk dalam2. Tepuk kuat2.

Aku cuma nak kan booster
Aku cuma nak enjoy hidup puas2
Tapi aku hanya tafsir hidup tu pada aspek jasmani sahaja
Rohani tu aku tinggalkan dan mungkin aku terus lupa
Aku patut sedar. Aku ni da jauh.
ALLAH da tunjuk da
Kenapa tak sedar2 lagi?

Aku adalah penyelesaian kpd masalah2 aku
Dan aku jugalah punca kpd masalah2 aku
Keikhlasan dalam beribadah itu penting
Bersihkan hati
Mulut ni. Jgn becok sgt. Jgn ringan sgt. Tutup2 sikit.
Mata
Kaki
Tangan
Kepala
Hati
Semua kena jaga
Jaga diri.
Jangan bunuh diri sendiri

Wasalam

P.s baiki diri

tidak di duga

As salam.

Kehadiran kau tidak aku duga
Alhamdulillah aku selesa
Kehadiran aku juga tidak kau duga
Alhamdulillah kau turut selesa
Kehadiran kau tidak aku duga
Alhamdulillah aku terima
Kehadiran aku juga tidak kau duga
Alhamdulillah kau turut menerima
Kehadiran kau tidak aku duga
Alhamdulillah aku tetap percaya
Kehadiran aku turut tidak kau duga
Alhamdulillah kau turut percaya

Semoga kita sentiasa bersyukur dgn rezeki yang ALLAH kurniakan
Semoga kita redha dgn takdir yg ALLAH tentukan

Alhamdulillah atas segalanya ya ALLAH

Semoga ukhuwah ini.
Semoga kasih syg ini.
Tetap ikhlas di hati.

Wasalam

p.s alhamdulillah ♡

yo lo 2014

as salam.

My last entry was on january. Haha!
Semakin dilupakan kehadiran buku catatan harian ini. *eh?
okay. I'm getting "fat"ter. Again "fat"ter. haha!
Because lately (especially this lovely 4th sem) I'm not so into sports.
Those research and so on make turn into sedentary life.
Such a loser! I'm eating like *i*. Alottttttttttttt :(
Mungkin masa makan tu baca doa laju2. So Allah murka. haha!

Now is ramadhan. But I felt this year, my Ramadhan not so meriah like other Ramadhan.
And I said this, kemeriahan itu kita yg cari.
jgn tunggu dia dtg. we must find and work for it.

today is tuesday.
i'm gonna start my cuti raya on khamis.
I'm not even start packing anything!
I knew I can leave my stuff inside the room.
but i prefer to take it home.

alot of thing happen within this january till july!
alot. and most of them. I enjoyed it to the most.
I went to thailand.
I went out crazy and run away.
I dance like no tomorrow.
I met extremely awesome people.
I cried like no tomorrow.
I spent money like no tomorrow.
I laughed like no tomorrow.
I love what I'm doing now.
I love people around me.
ALHAMDULILLAH.
Allah was so great :)

Despite all the Gaza, Palestine, MH370, MH17, Sabah.
Allah Maha Besar.
Praise to Allah.
He knows the best.
All in all, kiamat itu hampir tiba.

Sy terjumpa dia. *eh?
HAHA!

Happy ramadhan semua :)

wasalam.

p.s Insyaallah I give my best.

engkau

As salam

engkau yg gila.
puas hati?

People change. Me either.
so so so so.

kau kecewa ke?
Maafkan aku.

kau ckp aku ape?
"R***** *** kau"

Gila bodoh.
serious.

hambik laa.
hambik.
Aku minta maaf.

Org gila pun tahu sakit hati taw.
so what?

Kau hati2 dgn org.
org gelak2.
dlm hati?
Kadang2 syaitan yg menguasai.
mohon aku bykkn istighfar.

wasalam

p.s maafkan aku kawan. You had ruined it first!

apa jadah?

As salam.

wahai mahkluk sekalian alam
apa khabar semuanya?
Hahaha

eh nak tahu.
semalam aku g main baseball
awesome wei. First time.
1 token 15 balls

gila awesome.
next time aku nk main lagi lama dr tu.

this friday, aku ada kem.
till ahad.
maka nya bersuka suki lah kita di situ.

Act, aku tak tahu nk tulis apa.
aku hanya nk tulis
"Apa jadah"

Hahaha.

infinity insanity.

cantik, lets fall in love in future.
just please!

Kerana aku sesungguhnya amat selesa dgn kau.
Even we being apart because of love and work
even we being apart because of responsibility and passion
but dear cantik.
may ALLAH make us fall in love in future.
just please. :)

P.s kenapa aku sgt boros?!. HENTIKAN!!!!

used to be

As salam.

dear awak.
I knew now you faced your final exam.
good luck ye :)

I'm writing this entry not because I'm angry.
I just sad and I really want you to know.

dear awak.
I know it's over between us.
I'm not regret on anything happen.
I thanked you for such MEMORIES.

act, I really bloody want to know.
why was EXACTLY you left me.
is that really because couple itu haram?
I don't think so. Hahaha

I knew it because the lovely miss HANI.
we did texted alot you know.
we did contact each other.
and she tell everything that I didn't know.

guess what?
A human's heart just break into thousand pieces.
hahahahahaha
why am I so NOT PANDAI.
why am I love you so much.
Why am I trust you so much.

Such a ^@&$^@//!!^&
Hahahaha.

I just wanna marah marah marah awak like hell.
I just wanna remove all those memories that may useless for you.
hahahaha
why am I so so so blind?

Act for how long u acting like you like me?
I'm sorry for not realize that
really sorry

Awak nk tahu.
Kte buat mcm2 to regain my CONSIOUSNESS
macam2 gila.
not even cross your mind

awak
you break my heart into pieces
not once but twice or even more
hahahaha

but awak.
in future you cannot be like that.
you wife-to-be will be really really  really sad
just don't do that
jangan

kte tak benci awak
kte cuma marah geram dan sedih
hahaha

awak
2014
I'm moving on
creating thousand of memories
I should enjoy my life to the fullest
let go everything
Hahahaha

if you want me to return anything you had gave to me
just let me know okay.
for mine. You can just buang jauh2
Jangan simpan lah eh.
hehehe (I don't want your future wife to see it!)


For the time being.
lets be friend and join all the reunions that tighten our bond with other SMA
Lets meet during all the reunions
lets flashback our memories as co worker
it nicer kan. Hahahaha
lets not fall in love again
Just don't. Semoga tidak.

I'm NOT benci awak.
and I'm NOT angry anymore.
this entry I wanna post month ago.
but I just not ready to post it that time
but now I'm ready :)

Lets not fall in love
Lets the feeling fade away
away with those other memories

Diyana! Don't fall in love with zharif
*just reminder for myself*
Hahahaha

lets be friend forever mr presiden
*no hard feeling okayyyy*

wasalam

p.s alhamdulillah, finally I post it.

lol

As salam.

dear ALLAH
ALHAMDULILLAH for everything
Every single day. Every single thing.
And everything.

dear cantik,
Lets fall in love in future.
please! Hahaha

dear cantik, lets fall in love in future.
even after we being  apart.
apart because of works and loves
apart because of responsibility and passion

but dear cantik.
lets fall in love in future.

Dear medic night community 2014.
our hard works pay off!
Such a great night and great people.
Alhamdulillah alhamdullilah alhamdulillah :)


Wasalam.

p.s alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah ♡